Turns out my platelet count is lower than the high temp today and I don’t have enough red blood cells which is why I am so-damn-tired-all-the-time… Like I went to bed before 6pm last night, woke up at 10pm, cuz I had a stomachache – went back to sleep, woke up at 1am cuz I was all sweaty and my hands were numb and my heart was beating really fast..went back to sleep, woke up at 6am…took a nap this afternoon, am ready to go to bed. It’s 7.
This morning I received a message from my older brother, the one I haven’t spoken too since 2004, it went like this: Merry Christmas. hope everything is going well for your your family. Mom says hi.
whatthefuck? I don’t even know what to say – and yet my head is swimming with so much to say. First, I doubt “mom says hi”. I called her like 20 times last year and she didn’t call me back ever – or pick up the phone so I’ve no reason to believe she wanted so speak to me, ever. But good to know that bitch is still alive! I know I’m not giving up – I will not go before her! No way, no day!
I’m exhausted. For real. And my body hurts really bad…damn neupo. Apparently I’m a hot mess…